1:23 AM

Sabihin na nating emo ako ngayong gabi. Is my life a big joke?

My asked me if my boyfriend is aware that we're into a relationship, or is it just only me thinking that we are. Kung nakakamatay ang mura, matagal na siyang patay. Duh?! So if we're not into that kind of relationship, para saan yung iloveyous and imissyous from him. And if my memory serves me right, I asked him and he confirmed. Now, I don't know know what is he trying to say to our friends. Ang nakakainis lang, I now look stupid. My fault, I know, it was too rushed and bumigay kagad ako. Is was all for that certain guy I was trying to forget. For a certain guy I had a special feeling and I was never like this to anyone.

It ended up me talking to that guy. He asked me why my life is a joke (oh dear, why chat me, why don't you just comment on my facebook, period). And so we had this little heart to heart talk, me talking about my small problem which is not really a problem, him asking questions. And it led to that topic I tried not to tell him. I was a bad girl. I entered a so-called "relationship" just to forget about him. And this guy didn't even know why I need to. I need to make him remember my 2 confessions.

blah blah blah blah

After my another confession (this time, a very serious one, no jokes, no banats). My heart beat fast when he told me he's going to tell me something. I was too excited

only to find out.......


Yeah, I was kinda hurt. But I accept it's my fault.

Gawd, I shouldn't have said that before. I should have thought twice before I answered him. Now I can't have him back. But he told me we'll see.

Hays, why is this happening to me, am I jinxed with guys? Whatever, maybe it's not yet the right time. And maybe it's still time for me to go gaga over my virtual boyfriends.

Whatever. Y.Y