yeah, im currently depressed with a few reasons

1. i want to watch XLR8's mall show later at SM Manila. Planned to go there for almost a month, but looks like i will not able to make it, mom didn't let me. aiyooooooooo

2. feels like im a prisoner here at house. malayo pa ang board but mom wants me to review na for december board exams, nakakaasar. she won't let me have my social life na, di naman ako lagi umaalis ng bahay, minsan nga lang eh, nakakaasar talaga

3. i'm a puppet. oh yes, from the moment i entered college, they used to dictate what should i do. my close friends knew that i dont really want to become a nurse. she used to pick a course for me. wala na akong freedom to do what i want to do, kung sino ang mga dapat kong kaibigan, kaya i always end up lying at takas

4. disappointment from friends. i dont know why i feel this way. para bang lahat ng kaibigan ko iniiwasan ako, o kaya naman, they are not including me sa mga gala nila. oo nga, alam nilang di ako papayagan, pero diba, iba rin yung nasabihan ka, malay mo pwede pala. i know my barkada will always be there, pero yung other friends, i really don't know. para bang isa akong abo na di nila naaalala ko bigla nalang dumaan sa kanila at napuwing sila.

5. disappointment from someone. i now know why i feel this way, sabi nga ni kuya, i trusted that person kaya disappointed at affected ako sa nangyari, sana talaga he didn't told me about it nalang, para di kami naging awkward at napreserve pa yung friendship namin. but i assure him, di magaaffect ang friendship namin. i even greeted him yesterday nung nagsalubong kami. siguro di nalang lahat ng sasabihin niya ay paniniwalaan ko, kasi nalost na yung trust. pero gawd, affected pa rin ako

6. I WANT TO SEE BABY HYUNGJOON!!! but how?!! i need to watch Ukiss concert just to see them? but im not a big ukiss fan, and i dont have money. waaaaaaaaa, how i wish i could see him sa airport nalang, PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

7. leader KIM HYUNJOONG is coming too. this time, he's with Beast naman, im not a big beast fan din. my friend is asking me to watch with her kahit gen ad lang, kaso as if naman na papayagan ako ni mama, huhuhuhuhuhuhu

im 20 years old already but most of my problems are for young teens ata.
maybe i really need my freedom (feeling ko lang)

i remember Carlo's suggestion for my parents' grad gift. hingin ko raw freedom, hahahahaha